Good morning and welcome to Green Healthy Cooking’s failed attempt to make a beautiful mother’s day dessert. Ugh! So the idea was to make little cheesecakes in form of flowers because our mamas deserve flowers for mother’s day, right? I have these awesome cookie cutters that are super high and I imagined how beautiful the mini cheesecake or mini cheesecakes were going to be. I had a great idea for the crust which by the way WAS delicious and I will use again for another attempt in the future and the filling was going to be a gorgeous green so it contrasts with the super yellow rind of delicious meyer lemons and all was going to be roses and rainbows…..
So I had the choice to either not post anything at all today, lie about how delicious this dessert was that almost made me gag or to just expose myself to the inter-web and admit that there are failed cooking and baking attempts at Green Healthy Cooking Headquarters too sometimes. Only very seldom of course, rarely, hardly ever, never, only once, maaaaayybee twice a year, um, month, ok, ok, sometimes even in only one week :S
I don’t post those failed attempts and try to forget about them as soon as they hit the garbage because I always have something else up my sleeve I can post. I work a little ahead as you might imagine. I always tend to have at least one extra recipe cooked, photographed and fotos edited ready to be posted but this time, after my kidney stone adventures I am behind. Very much behind and I did not have an alternative recipe for today. I figured I could create something else right now, and photograph and edit and post under a lot of pressure before having to go pick up the kids from school but then I realized, this blog is not about shooting out recipes like there was no tomorrow. This blog is about well thought through healthy recipes that my readers will love and be able to recreate at home with the same result. I’m convinced all of you are here for the quality, not the quantity of recipes and I owe good quality recipes to both you AND myself.
Besides, isn’t it fun to read that your favorite food blogger messes up stuff, too? Usually I think a recipe through quite well before making it and I research ingredients and test around sometimes to know if a certain mixture I had in mind will really react the way I wanted. This time, as I didn’t have much time I just went for it and made the whole recipe before testing if the cream cheese mixed with kiwis, lemon juice, honey and turbinado sugar were really going to hold it’s shape. I also didn’t test for taste or color before and this is what I got out of it: a waaaayyy too saucy filling that of course never set in the fridge, oh and do you see any green tint at all? No? Me neither. What’s up kiwi??? After placing in the freezer for a while I was able to push the cake up and out of the cookie cutter and it held it’s shape. Yaaaay, well it was simply going to be a “frozen” mini cheesecake, right? No big deal. The problem is, it melted away before I could even take a second photo, haha. Still then I figured, no big deal, as long as it tastes amazing and this is when I dug in and I felt like my life as a cheesecake baker was going to be over for ever and ever! Ewwwwwww!!! So sour, so bitter, tooooo much honey, so, so, so gross! I threw it all away and only ate the crust while making a sad face.
I’m over it now. I’m not sad anymore and I can even laugh at myself. Holy moly, what a disgusting recipe. A total fail. Failing is so important in the kitchen though. I would never have learned to cook delicious food and bake delicious cakes and tarts and breads if it wasn’t for the initial failed attempts that taught me so much about food chemistry. There is no way one can improve unless you learn new things through mistakes.
Here is to all the mamas who have failed in the kitchen and not given up and tried again and again and again until everybody was happily eating their delicious dishes. Mami, I will never, ever, ever forget that disgusting eggplant zucchini pizza with undercooked pizza dough you made for us, but I will also never forget those Ají de Gallinas and Secos de Cordero and aaaaall the other heavenly dishes you made for us. Thank you for not giving up after failed attempts. Thank you for improving every day. Thank you for ending up becoming one of the best chefs I’ve met in my life and all that while watching three girls, attending to your husband’s business calls, keeping the house in impeccable state always with a smile on your face and a new song up your sleeve. You are truly amazing and I love you to the moon and back!